Flashlight

This quote from my last post really drove a nail through my heart today:

What you focus on grows, what you think about expands, and what you dwell upon determines your destiny.

— Robin Sharma

Before my boss said the words, I already knew what he was going to say. I didn’t get the promotion to senior manager.

My anxiety last Friday evening and anticipation of the worst case scenario manifested into reality. Lesson learned: stop dwelling on your fears. In my case, they came true. 

Though here’s the thing, I’m genuinely ok. I was of course bummed but, funny enough, I was not as heartbroken as I thought I would be. 

Not exactly sure why though. I truly am disappointed but I gave it my best shot and I grew through the process. But just not enough to land the promotion. 

Here are two things I’m walking away with: 1) when a door closes, find a window or make one, and 2) if the shell you love can’t grow with you, find a different shell.

I don’t want to remain in a place where my talents are not appreciated enough to be rewarded. I know I’m better than that.

Maybe destiny has other plans for me, but I don’t want to sit around and wait for it to happen again. My focus now is on finding my power.

Now, if only this new determination and strength had been around at the start to fight my little demon named Anxiety (and it’s baby brother, Gloom).